Yes, I know, I know… I can sense the exasperation all the way over here.
I’ve been pretty quiet over the past few weeks and I know it’s driving a lot of my friends and family members crazy. I’m sorry!
The truth is, keeping my social media alive is so much harder here than it was back home. The internet connection is not always as perfect and fast as it could be (we are on an island after all), and also, well… I have so little time! I can’t believe I used to spend hours watching TV or surfing the web. Not only do I have less time for that here, but there’s so MUCH going on all day that the last thing you want to do is spend time in your room. And if there is any time left, well… Sleep wins. And even then, that’s if you can resist the invitation from friends living within just a few feet of you who want to hang out and rant about the day over a Cuba Libre (which, most of the time, is more Libre than Cuba if you know what I mean… :P)
I’ve been a G.O for exactly 4 weeks today. But it feels like so much longer! My days are jam-packed, and so much has happened that I honestly don’t know where to begin. This blog post could be 10 pages long and I still wouldn’t be able to properly describe all the emotions I’ve been going through.
All G.O’s warned me to wait 3 weeks to one month before deciding on whether I liked the job or not. I thought it was a bit much at first. This was an awesome job! Of course I would love it! And I was (only slightly! :P) older than most G.O’s, so probably more mature and therefore “readier”. I felt confident, and knew what to expect.
Ha! It turns out it doesn’t matter how old you are, or how much experience you think you have, the transition period will be rocky and you will have a hard time. I had a few days of loneliness and doubt, of wondering if I was ever going to fit in here. And I have to admit, that may have contributed to me being a little quieter web-wise… I tend to keep to myself when things get rocky in my head.
The good news is, I’m over it. 🙂 In the past week, something clicked, and things have started getting better and better. I feel like I’m almost done learning the rules of the game and now I can start to play. I’m better at my job and more independent. I’ve started rehearsing for shows and even had my first performance last Saturday!
And this week, I spent my day off with fellow G.Os outside the resort for a change, and it made all the difference. We went to Macao Beach, tasted the Dominican version of poutine called “Yaroa”, and spent the night out in Bavaro. Suddenly, I truly felt on vacation and it struck me.
I live here. I work here. In this paradise.
I’m going to have a blast doing this job. And I think I’m going to be pretty good at it too. The excitement level has been mounting, and I’m loving it. I’m suddenly seeing all these possibilities, and I can’t wait to see where this could lead me to!
I hope to write again much sooner. Please keep sending me messages, I love reading each and everyone of them, even if I can’t always answer. Thanks for your kind words, and I can’t wait to see you here! 🙂